Yeap, I'm still up. I just had the urge to write my thoughts down. Lately, I've been feeling blah. School actually started last Wednesday but I skipped the first week since first few days of classes are always pointless. And boy did I make a good decision. Turns out no professors showed up. So I was happy that my sembreak was extended for three days and a weekend. Woopie. But then, reality is lurking just very very close by. I don't want to go to school yet. I fear that things will even get more difficult. I mean I barely got through the first term. I guess that's the 'blah' I've been feeling lately, or is it just merely PMS?

Life has been a bore. I am in dire need of inspiration. I know I should be grateful for waking up each day but recently, I just can't seem to find the reason to live. What's my purpose really? :| This probably is the result from being far from HIM. I haven't actually made the time to really talk to Him, let alone even listen to Him. I've been so lost. Where did the passion and drive go? :|

I want to get my feet back on the right path. Maybe the real world has just overwhelmed me. Kinda like I got torn between my faith and the temptations this world brings. Yes, I've been struggling. I just really want escape from reality and just meditate. Sadly, all the "good stuff" here seem to be always pulling me in, pushing me away from Him. I let them pull me in, my spirit's been ill. :| Get well soon, self.

Honestly, I need help :|

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- ROMANTIC COMEDY. SUSPENSE THRILLERS CAN BE FUN TO WATCH ALSO.

5.) What do you do when you are feeling very sad or depressed?
- CRY. RANT. PRAY. CRY. RANT. PRAY. SURPRISINGLY, I LOSE MY APPETITE WHEN I FEEL SAD. (I SHOULD BE DEPRESSED OFTEN! HAHA.)

6.) What makes your angry? Do you get angry very soon? How do you overcome your anger?
- IRRITATING PEOPLE. UNIMPORTANT COMPULSORY TASKS. GIRLS WHO ACT LIKE SLUTS. YEAH, I MEAN THESE THINGS GET ON MY NERVES :| I RANT.

7.) Which is the best vacation you’ve ever had in your life?
- BADIAN TRIP WITH H4 :)

8.) If you could have a luncheon with any three people (real of fictitious/ from any time period, dead or alive) , which three people would you choose and why?
- JOHNNY DEPP, JON FOREMAN, ALICE.

9.) Which is your most cherished childhood memory? How were you as a kid ?
- WHEN MIKE KISSED ME WHEN I WAS ONLY 4. I WAS THE TEACHER'S PET WHO JOINED AND WON ALL THE CONTESTS HELD AT SCHOOL. YEAH, EMBARRASSING :|

10.) If given a complete freedom to start afresh, what profession would you choose and why?
- INTERIOR DESIGNER OR EVENT COORDINATOR.

11.) What is your idea of fun? If given a choice to skip school for a day, how would you spend the entire day?
- MY IDEA OF FUN IS PRETTY MUCH BEING RANDOM AND SPONTANEOUS, ENDLESSLY LAUGHING AND TALKING WITH FRIENDS. I'D SPEND THE ENTIRE DAY DOING THE THINGS I JUST TYPED.

12.) Which is your favorite time of the day, are you a morning person or a night person?
- FAV TIME OF THE DAY..ERM, DEPENDS ON MY MOOD BUT DEFINITELY NOT 7.30!D: I'M MORE OF A NIGHT PERSON.

13.) What is the craziest thing you have ever done?
- I'VE DONE TOO MANY CANNOT CHOOSE WHICH ONE.

14.) Name one person whom you love the most and one person whom you hate the most.
- CAN'T ANSWER THAT.

15.) In case you and I were going out and we had a fight. How would you try to patch things up?
- WHO'S 'YOU' HERE?

16.) Which is the funniest prank played on you or played by you?
- >:)

17.) If given a choice, which animal would you want to be? Why?
- GIRAFFE. I WANNA BE TALL FOR ONCE.

18.) Who was your first crush? Did you ever tell him/her about your feelings?
- FIRST CRUSH WAS NIGEL ONG BACK IN N2. I REMEMBER HOW CUTE HE USED TO BE :3 MAHN, I FELL IN LOVE WITH THOSE ROSY CHEEKS!

19.) Which is your most favorite place in this earth?
- IN MY ROOM.

20.) If you were stranded on a lonely beach, what are the five things that you would bring to survive?

So I just had to rant here JUST BECAUSE =/

I'm overly excited for later! We're holding a get-together/movie marathon at Ca's house and I cannot wait to see the dudes from Manila. Five months is just too long and I miss high school even more as each minute passes by. Later should be extremely fun :D

BUT! I feel anxious as well. Graphics suddenly popped in my head and I don't even know why. Last Thursday, I took the grace exam Sir gave to the epic failures of the class (which includes me T.T) and I know I failed it. I am 92.8% sure that I fail this MAJOR SUBJECT. No big surprise if I see a 5.0 in my final grade =/ Also, I'm a little worried about Vistec. I failed to submit one plate and I'm not doing so well in this subject either. I have a feeling that I fail this as well, another MAJOR SUBJECT. That makes it TWO MAJORLY MAJOR SUBJECTS. Rude awakening there: ARCHI IS NOT FOR GELLER =/ As the saying goes, "If you can't stand the heat..stay out of the kitchen". I better start putting my hopes way way down low as to not ENTIRELY disappoint myself. I just feel bad that I'll soon cause a huge disappointment to my parents. URGH =(

IF I FAIL GRAPHICS, WHICH I KNOW I WILL, I WILL HAVE TO SHIFT TO ANOTHER COURSE. That's what I exactly told myself before entering college and I feel that doom is coming real soon. Second option WAS Interior Design but since both are closely related, meaning there still would be Graphics, then I better get out of CAFA na lang. Third option is Psychology. I know, I know. WAY WAY WAY FAR FROM MY FIRST TWO OPTIONS but I feel that it SEEMS easier than the two. SEEMS since I do not even know. But, technical and mechanical skills are not required so much in Psych, I might as well go for it. Plus, it's interesting anyway. This should be hard =/

LORD, GUIDE ME :(

time for bed naw

First sem is over, hello SEMBREAK! Classes officially ended last week but we had to finish our final project for Design and our individual portfolio (I got a C+ for that :D) as well last Monday, and we finally finished our last three plates in Graphics yesterday. Unfortunately, I failed in my Graphics final exam. A 3.8 for not answering an entire test which was worth 80 points. FAIL. But the Lord is good, Sir is giving one last hope for the doubtful people like me and giving another exam tomorrow. I REALLY NEED TO PASS THIS ONE. Or it's bye bye architecture for me. SIGH.

Hey, how are yoo guys doing? I spot a few cobwebs in this spot, I've been recently hooked to Tumblr. Tee hee. So here's an update of Geller's uninteresting life.

The past days I've been pretty much preoccupied with school, friends, and of course internet. I'll start off with how things are at school for me. Well, the grades from Sir Puerto's subjects came out last Wednesday and I got a 2.3 in Design1 which is pretty much good enought for me considering that Sir, and aesthetics guy, is very hard to please. I got a 5.0 in Vistec just because I got a zero on one plate which is really bizarre because I happen to have done all of my plates. But, I'm glad to say that I didn't break down or anything (HAHA). Sir just told me to bring my sketches and present them to him so as to tweak my grade. I hope I get at least a 3.0! Lastly, I'm most proud to say that I got a 2.5 in Humanities and I (along with Ka, Ca and a few and I mean FEW others) were the only ones who passed in this subject. Although it's just a minor subject, it still is a fulfilling accomplishment :D AND AND, what makes me even happier about it is that we didn't cheat on that one exam we had whilst the rest of the class practically had their notes in front of their faces. Proof that GOD INDEED IS VERY MUCH ALIVE AND FAITHFUL~ :)

Today, we had another Graphics exam. I, once again, FAILED it. I lost my chances of getting 20 points in the countour plotting just because I used centimeters instead of meters. SO DANGHAG AND TANGA -.- For the roofing test, I failed it along with most of the people in class. I JUST NEED TO DO REALLY REALLY WELL IN MY FINAL PLATE AND EXAM. Kaya pa ni!:D

Final exams next week and boy is my schedule packed! I've yet to start on a lot of pending plates and projects for this semester. Design 1 portfolio due next Saturday and I have yet to look for it. GUH. Then, there's that group project which is due next Wednesday. We have to finish the sculpture this weekend!:O Then there's Graphics again. We're currently working on our last plate which is composed of three sheets. Will have to go to school to finish it! I shall be hopeful~!:D

GOD WILL BE THERE, ALWAYS. :)

So, I think I get Roofing now. Although it's just a tad bit, I'm glad that at least I'm trying. However, I won't deny the fact that anxiety and doubt are clouding up my head BUT I hope that God will clear all those away and restore peace back into my mind. With that being said, I shall be hopeful for tomorrow's exam. I'm not 100% geared up for it but God will be by my side and that belief alone makes me feel secured (and hopefully that security will last tomorrow).

Time for contour lines which I so totally don't get. RISHI, WHEREAREYOO?=/

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